My New Quarry/Targets

Since I've worked my asses so hard that I couldn't end up doing good, I think it's time for some action. A real action.

After this damn mid-term, I'm going to pursue a test, and get all equipments I needed to start some real compilation of my debut album.

This is still remain a tentative action, but I don't even gives a shit since I'm failing my exam, I'm failing to get the girl I want and I'm failing hard to even succeed in What they called, a simple essential life pleasure. I'm not enjoying at all. It's clear that by retrospecting my life few months back, all I can see are numbness and full of non-direction walking.

Every single time when I'm up to something if I'd told somebody it might ended up jinxed or unachievable. But I've hoped anybody whoever read this blog, pray/ just simply wishes me good luck. this is all I'm asking, you can imagine whatever pitiful face I'm making to seek for a little bless from all of you.

I'm going to compile 21 songs since I'm aged as the numbers and I'm glad I've planed this mission. I just passed my birthday, this is absolutely my 21's new year resolution.

Here's the newest lyrics i compiled few weeks back and perhaps it's going to be part of the album's track:


That's how i got the real moniker,
everything is proper,
everybody find it catchy when they call me m-fucker,
For the past few month I'm planting my flower,
working my magic on this track,I'm mr.harry potter,
freakiest beat created by the asian rapper,
no offenece, they say he sounded even better,
malaysia representative new generation rapper,
what kind of beat can go even harder,
now you'll be my son, but dun call me father,
my present is a must cuz u want it all you real nasty lil' fucker,
I got a bracelet decorated with 7-rainbow-color,
you'll be asking me, can I be even more gayer,
who's care if i'm even more gayer,
who gives a shit cuz nobody even bother,
I cant't hear you I'm gon' turn this system even louder!
I aint stop if i aint the hall-of-famer,
I want it all, love, sex, fun and the power,
trust me nothing get better when it ain't over!
I'm hungry as fuck call me the real monster,
when my Pepsi max bottomed-up can i get another?
I dun have to ask , cuz i can get whenever if I wana.

By Jax-One




I got my new tarGET,
set-up the jET,
push on the red button target get flAT,
that's my dream now, happening nEXT.

A Perfidious Lover

'Perfidious' is a wonderful word, somehow too good to describe someone characteristics, all I'm mentioning is the beauty of the word’s structure straightforwardly do not matches it's meaning. [Per-fid-ee-uh s] It is the way to pronounce this word, amazing word, almost sounded like a France's/Italy's word. Actually I'm a big fan of spelling and vocab., but most importantly the pronunciation of words excites me most. No exception for this word too. It means disloyalty.

It provokes my inner and deepest grievance. I've gone through phase of emotional turmoil, being duped by a girl into a tunnel of sorrow, who claimed herself loving me that much and 'that much' is too much for me to satisfy with. I don't even understand the way of how should one feel when loved by someone, too confuse with the realism and vagary. She is a perfidious lover. She is once my goddess but now she is a devil in red.

Thwarted by the lies and disloyalties of this beautiful fable teller, nothing can bring me back to the world of realness, the world I’m living now. But at the moment I’m completely awake, I’m outright sure one thing remains exist and it is so close to me, my conscious and a million times cognizance psych. I’m grateful towards god’s assistance. It’s a bounty rewarding me for travelling through the filthiest and most catastrophic tunnel of love. I’m clear of what was happened and I know what to be done next, but I already done it.

Stolen Knowlegde

This memory thunderously strucked my psych by an hour ago, while I was on my noble quest, searching for the best classical musics ever existed in the world of old-billboard, in Amazon.com.

What I remembered was something minor but it formed the beginning of my life, whether it was about study or personal life as a son. Knowledge is gold and maybe invisible nugget. How is it possible for a person to steal from another person in term of knowledge?

It is possible of course, too regret for doing it once. Perhaps I was naive last time or perhaps I received the best mother love. She wants me to hunt down my education target, travelling through the brightest route towards my destination. With the knowledge she provide, I'll be able to take off to a higher altitude of life standard.

I retrospected the memory, when I first received the classical music CD from the Reader Digest's magazine, I wasn't too into medieval melody, but I wanted to fulfill my dreams, that left me no choice and I took the ultimate way to approach the uncertain path, full of dullness but bright light will be accompanying me along the route, that's the only navigator I require.

Clair De Lune by Debussy, this is one of the track confined in the CD, it was the title give me a hint of how the music is about to inject feeling into my brain. Moonlight it is. I will continue to follow this navigation for my voyage. Even in the darkest and loneliest sea, full of enormous sea waves and worst weather, I'll relentlessly travelling. Destination-her love.

Sacred Preach

Going down the 'preach' of my favorite rappers, Kanye and Jay-z, I can senses something dark and motivating. 'No Church in the wild', the best song in the newest collab-juggernaunt album.

Clearly been told by glancing through the 5-words song title, from my deep interpretation, the song is an objection to the assistance of a particular religion.

'What's a king to a God? What's a God

to a non-believer?'

The comparisons made was indeed wiz and provocative. Perfect selection of Frank Ocean's hook, formed a catchy and admirable feeling toward the song as well as the dark message behind this melody.

I'm motivated in the other way, let me be clear, not satanism of course, I'm religion-free. What for if you are entitled with the holiest religion? Where are all the sacred preaches we inculcated? Where are the worships? You are not deemed believer if you are not willing to put the preach into your heart.

Day is boring, nigth is my darling

Gambling relentlessly for thou love,
flying free resemble the white dove,
with the price of infinite pain,
I'll stand ready in an open lane,

sometimes I deemed myself foolish,
ignorant of the reality I'm appeased,
by chance of fortune I'm alive,
thou are the source of revive.

The Unkown But Clearly Known

I liked to express my feelings in the form of art, because it wasn't hard to do so, but sometimes it became unknown. Possibly if I'm aware, I couldn't even call back what I've done. Despite that, I'm well relieved.

Who wana share this overwhelming feeling with me?

you? you? or you??
anybody?.......
mmmmm.... guess no...

Too much to feel alone, too much to yell 'inside' alone.
It's even hard to spell it out...

Interesting thing to do

Yesterday I planned a one day 'BIG PROJECT'. Yea!! I told my mom it was a business...So yea..It was indeed one hell of a day. I was going out for the whole morning and get back to home by afternoon. everything was going smooth like I've planned. Usually when I've planned to do something, surely there will be something unexpected interrupted my whole plan to an end, but this time, hell it go smooth. I couldn't tell you I was actually up to but just briefly to mention that I'm having a darn good time yesterday 'alone'. haha!

But then it would be memory of the year : If I'm to make a plague for this name would be 'MOMENT OF THE YEAR'.

Heh,Morning!

IF you are out there now, in the morning, I suggest you go sit down in a roadside caffe, some place you can have your breakfast, sip your wonderful brewed coffee, white coffee, roast black coffee that just make you wakey wakey!!

NOW my imagination just flying to Starbuck Caffe, reminisced the day when I work as a waiter in Sunway Pyramid, where got to hang out in a Starbuck caffe!!

I was hoping to have my breakfast too >.< now, i just sip my old cup of roast white coffee 2in1... 'slurpp...,sipp...' then I found out that there wasn' any water leave in my water container, then I skipped my plan to make a maggie. Luckily my malay friend last night gave me a pack of sultana biscuit... just load my stomach up ... I'm Lazy!! ><

PERHAPS I'm type of guy who live my life during the night, the type that worried if I can't wake up early for important meeting ..haahaa! emmm, not funny. so it is different if you live the morning, and it was.. really.. imagine you hearing bird chirping, hhahaa! i guess in the night the only bird I can heard making noise is the Harry Potter's type of OWL.. <- this is damn funny xD ... noo??

ALSO, I was very stress few day back, cause I have been rushing my works, my scripts preparation for this SIFE presentation. Really stressed and you know felt a little lonely at the same time.

I ALWAYS told myself that 'Jason !!! can you be INDEPENDANCE!!! You not gonna die if you are alone, stupid!!'.... so I will live through my life with this phrase... After I fall down, I really felt so bad, that type of hurts that you need to shades tears on your eyes and cry till you were asleep. In the morning of that day after I'm FALLING DOWN, my eyes are all dried tears, and I experienced the 'PAIN'. But if I could have a way to turn back to that moment, I will take the chances to say sorry to her that I couldn't be her boy and to take care of her... guess pain is a type of priceless feeling that none of us would want to feel it, it is a treasure of life but it is not that appealing to certain people. For me it is an experience of dark moment of my life, it just feel so good when you fall down, if I'm being optimistic.

'When you walk away, I count the steps you take, do you see how much I need you there?'
such a sad lyrics. I dunno how much pain is avril lavigne felt before, but it is really bad feeling. For me this phrases meant deep love that I drowned in it.

Oppppppzzzzz, got caught up by this girl...

Zzz... I was so shocked when she wrote me several line of words in Chinese. Then I started to wonder is it related to me? Haha! then only I realize after she mentioned to me that she red my blog. But, so long I never met such caring girl in my life, except my mom and sis. Haha! then now she is a bit like a Mom dy...

emmm... aaahhhhh... nothing xD

Fudged up AGAIN zzzzzz!!

Gosh!
I hate that feelin'!!
feelin' of gettin' bad exam marks!!
I swear to god that I've poured my whole energy in it to strive for it.
just that perhaps I don't deserved a good rewards for my hardworks?

It all get to my knowledge when one of my friends told me I got 35/50 for my Statistics Paper..
I guess I'm the lowest scorer this time.,I was almost so excited to celebrate something, but I couldn't make it.
then AGain!!!! SOMETHING SILLY HAPPENED!!

great news - Bad news <-------- first event for today
BAD NEWS + BAD NEWS -great news <------------in the end..

Ok .. I'm done with my anger.. now I will be punishing' myself..

I'm fudged up ...

Leaving my question unanswered, even though I know it from the first sight it is the easiest question..

perhaps it is my life, always let things go n didn't possess enough spirit to grab it. I don't managed my time, lettin' it go, just pretend it ain't shinny gold, even it glitter like a bar of gold.. this is so brutally pathetic n unforgivable deed.

Coffe Maker ?? Hee heeee hee..

_____Bad jokes__________

Jason : Man I need a coffee maker so badly!!

mind : How bad you need it??

Jason : I need it so bad that if anyone buy one for me I will marry that person!!!

mind : hahahahha xD

Yaa.. it is bad .. I was just doin' my business plan. suddenly I was like in a stage of infatuation. this time is different tho. I was infatuated over this coffee maker. You know me, study is my life, coffee is just some extra co curricular activity for me. Yeaa.. no doubt at all, all i wanted is this lil' small coffee maker, so that i could really feel it, feel the way I was brewing my cup of coffee, espresso' , latte with my name on it !! sweeet tho..

Once I had it, maybe i will be wake up in the mornin' feelin' like Jason Derulo?

yaa... Perhapzzzzz..

Why there are so much things to do!!!

ASSginment!!!

Assignment (Group one)!!

just too much to handle now.

Just like usual, deep inside my heart it is pain.

down below my body, there is a pain in my ass!!

hahah!! see that, 'ass' = assignment.

I guess I not yet mentioned the torturin' exam that will begin soon,

PS: I din' barely touch my notes!!!!Never tot second sem can be so cruel to me ==|||

Love Blinded #1

__Love Blinded :__




Started to feelin' shame,
Adopted the feelin' of sand,
Collisions of it never come to an end,
Love,it started to begin,
Poor regulation,it's complicated to maintain,
When all falls down it came to an end,

The past is the past that shouldn't be recast,
This is my blog I'm sure it can be broadcast,
All hidden treasure will take the form of text,
Let it be told from my context,
Cuz I couldn't hold it in my head,
When I do so,for sure I'll be relaxed.


By: Jason Wong a.k.a Diabolus meets Malus

Chinese New Year ,11 (Bunny Conquered the Whole Year!!!)

____New year n New item ^^___

What?!! I'm not sure... But all i know is I'm loaded this damn time ^^ I'm just sayin', check it out!

1. New Aussie bandana from my beloved GUGU!
2. Some Ang Pao >_<
3. My stomach is loaded for a day :O
4. ...... That's it laa... where got so much... hahah!

New bandana!!! use for Breakdance is all good!!!

Captured durin' the visit to my mom's parents house in Seremban,N9 (edited in sepia color to suit the ol'house)

ANG PAO!!!

Again ANG PAO!!!

Bad or Good?? Memory

Another night spent here in Seremban, Negeri Sembilan. Too much things happened here today. Some even too FRAZ to even think about it.

It is clearly 3:18am in the mornin' already. I guess i will Blog those events of the whole fun, frustratin', shockin', etc. later, not today.

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Intro :

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Bad or good??? I was so inspired from few hours ago, to talk about those feelings, moments and things that can't be undone.<---(EMO) LIL again xD..

I hope I can still maintain this bloggin' thing but i got a life, study is always buggin' me when I want to invest my free time into some other activities...zzzzzzz!!! even it is eff-king sarcastic enough statement i made above, still, I have to take some time to laze around like a real S~OH...

Memory that I indulged in replayin' it again and again---->

1. Love relationship
2. Song indulgence
3. Study life

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1. Love relationship

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Wai Wai o.O

Me n Wai Wai o.O before I presented it to her

I choose to talk about the so called 'Love' experience, it was the first ever feelin' I've experienced. I never know that this is the most unforgettable memory. If I'm being kind, I will judge this break-up or failure to last long in this relationship as a pre-mistake that I made that created this consequence.

Myriad amount of heartaches I gone through, so much of painful loneliness I endured till the very end of it. So much of hatred that were not supposed to be in me. I hated her for leavin' me unclear. I even hated her more when she told me the real reason.

How am I survived? How am I gonna' continue my first semester in my new Uni? Nonetheless, it was ended. I can't even believe it when I make it through the hardest path that I ever taken. As you can see above is a cute lil' TEDDY BEAR, I named it Wai Wai when i Presented it to her. It is back to me after a week.

I guess Wai Wai will be with me forever. Even though I fail in this relationship, I had learned a lot. I got to know how silly I am, I got to know how n when 'faith' is not with us. Ahhhh... LOVE... I can't even get enough of it. Oh god... I realize that I had no more tears to drop...It just hurt too much for me to realize the truth...

I guess it is my life that I can't even got a chance to love somebody that I admired so much. Haizz... But I had tried to love somebody. Just so sad that it didn't work.

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Song of the day :

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Super Human - Chris Brown ft. Keri Hilson

Weak
I had been crying and crying for weeks
How'd I survive when I could barely speak?
Barely eat, on my knees

But that's the moment you came to me
I don't know what your love has done to me
Think I'm invincible
I see through the me I used to be

You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me with your love

I'm feeling all superhuman you did this to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you

....

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CNY 2011 First day, second nite...

初一!!!

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Hahaha!

Laughin' In Loud (LIL),it is like you literally laugh,but is in your mind, no physical or verbal action involve <---Ulalala!! term of communication..

It is my new thing xD.

First day of CNY, begin like normal,I was spendin' my time in Seremban,N9, this is the place where .<3>It is also my Grannies' house <3.it>

1. I woke up in the mornin' feelin' like ''a boy with saliva droolin' down his face''
2. Washed my hair n the color still there, :D like it was not fadin', cool orange-red dye on my supa' styled hair. xD
3. I met my cousin, Darryl Wong, long lost buddy. He is gettin' matured, taller, bigger in size.
4. Huh! I got a chance to touch an iPad's screen == hee hee! My uncle is a gadget maniac, hahaha!
5. I end up Bloggin' at mid-night, alone in the hall of my grannies' house... LIL again! (PS: it is all because I was influenced badly by this girl, she is one of those girl who possessed the power of xxxxxx,don't know what it is...)

So it is like that, the whole day. Mellow, dull, zzzzzzz! But it is worth it :) put a smile on the face. At the end of this bloggin' thing, I even got a chance to watch the newest Ray William Johnson's youtube vlog... FAV!!!!! EVAR!!!

Memory flashback:

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Before I forgot the previous two nite gatherin' with my Beasties n Homies! I will show you this wonderful photos taken that nite, after i sip in several cup of Tiger Crystal :) I was doin' my favorite Breakdance move of all-time on the roadside "rock sign" I think...zzzz...I dunno what it named, anyway picture perfect, check it out -------v below

SUPA' FLYIN' JaSON!!!

P/S: Even my buddy praise for my super flying ability! yey!!!

Song of the day :

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Goes to Avril Lavigne - Slipped Away

-randomly played by my iMesh player while i was busy typin' n bloggin'...ahhhh so much of compliment in my activities together with this song...

In conclusion :

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Thank you for this girl.. MY!!! started to heart poundin' xD