Who wana share this overwhelming feeling with me?

you? you? or you??
anybody?.......
mmmmm.... guess no...

Too much to feel alone, too much to yell 'inside' alone.
It's even hard to spell it out...

Interesting thing to do

Yesterday I planned a one day 'BIG PROJECT'. Yea!! I told my mom it was a business...So yea..It was indeed one hell of a day. I was going out for the whole morning and get back to home by afternoon. everything was going smooth like I've planned. Usually when I've planned to do something, surely there will be something unexpected interrupted my whole plan to an end, but this time, hell it go smooth. I couldn't tell you I was actually up to but just briefly to mention that I'm having a darn good time yesterday 'alone'. haha!

But then it would be memory of the year : If I'm to make a plague for this name would be 'MOMENT OF THE YEAR'.

Heh,Morning!

IF you are out there now, in the morning, I suggest you go sit down in a roadside caffe, some place you can have your breakfast, sip your wonderful brewed coffee, white coffee, roast black coffee that just make you wakey wakey!!

NOW my imagination just flying to Starbuck Caffe, reminisced the day when I work as a waiter in Sunway Pyramid, where got to hang out in a Starbuck caffe!!

I was hoping to have my breakfast too >.< now, i just sip my old cup of roast white coffee 2in1... 'slurpp...,sipp...' then I found out that there wasn' any water leave in my water container, then I skipped my plan to make a maggie. Luckily my malay friend last night gave me a pack of sultana biscuit... just load my stomach up ... I'm Lazy!! ><

PERHAPS I'm type of guy who live my life during the night, the type that worried if I can't wake up early for important meeting ..haahaa! emmm, not funny. so it is different if you live the morning, and it was.. really.. imagine you hearing bird chirping, hhahaa! i guess in the night the only bird I can heard making noise is the Harry Potter's type of OWL.. <- this is damn funny xD ... noo??

ALSO, I was very stress few day back, cause I have been rushing my works, my scripts preparation for this SIFE presentation. Really stressed and you know felt a little lonely at the same time.

I ALWAYS told myself that 'Jason !!! can you be INDEPENDANCE!!! You not gonna die if you are alone, stupid!!'.... so I will live through my life with this phrase... After I fall down, I really felt so bad, that type of hurts that you need to shades tears on your eyes and cry till you were asleep. In the morning of that day after I'm FALLING DOWN, my eyes are all dried tears, and I experienced the 'PAIN'. But if I could have a way to turn back to that moment, I will take the chances to say sorry to her that I couldn't be her boy and to take care of her... guess pain is a type of priceless feeling that none of us would want to feel it, it is a treasure of life but it is not that appealing to certain people. For me it is an experience of dark moment of my life, it just feel so good when you fall down, if I'm being optimistic.

'When you walk away, I count the steps you take, do you see how much I need you there?'
such a sad lyrics. I dunno how much pain is avril lavigne felt before, but it is really bad feeling. For me this phrases meant deep love that I drowned in it.